Blog Post Title One (“Are we finished yet?”)

Obi eagerly awaits the completion of the website that has been stealing cuddle time

What the freakin bleep bleep!!

I am actually doing it! I have a BLOG and a SHOP and a place for FREE THINGS and a place where people will feel cherished and I am so excited and grateful that this morning I had a little happy cry.

I doubted myself, if I could create a website with minimal techy knowledge and I have surprised myself completely! Haa! Just goes to show what you can create when you persist :)

My experience as I began this whole website build was ( I say WAS fully knowing that I still AM on this website build since I am currently writing this as I create it….thanks to my aeronautically designed ping pong brain…..) a mixture of excitement, overwhelm and trepidation.

When you’re doing something you’ve waited so long to attempt, how are you supposed to feel? There’s a big part of me that thinks “If I do this, then what?”

When I co-built my faerie shop ‘Faerie Nature’ many many moons ago in a little town in the south-west, all my heart went into it.

I would sit in that shop with my many ideas, listening to the twinkling water from the indoor pond and feeding my new actual baby that I gave birth to in the middle of creating it all, being amazed how something could go from a spark of a thought into an actual real thing.

I’d made a thing!! And it was so lovely!

We made a big papier mâche tree right in the middle of the shop with real cork screw willow branches shooting out of the sides that my business partner and my kids and my mum and I all made together, and billowy blue hand-dyed material stapled to the roof so it looked like the sky.

There was fairy lights and magic and it was very pantomimey but so purdy! and actually an amazing effort for our first shop and one of my best memories ever.

But you never really know how things are going to look until you actually try it.

This time I am making this purely for my own little creations. For my family. For my dreams.

This website is a shiny vessel of all the things I have wanted to create; held in my heart over years, dreamt about through seasons, and doodled over constantly in the many piles of half scrawled sketchbooks I keep everywhere so I always have something to put ideas into.

I have been spurred on by my now-grown loving amazing children of whimsy and their wonderful loving partners, my awesome ever-listening, always loving mum Judy, my sister Shaz (who I pinky promised last year that we would fully live our dreams and be each others inspiration), WOOHOOO Shaz!!; my ever creative bro Kimmy and travelling bro Jono who bought me this laptop; our little dog Obi who listens to everything I ramble on about even if she doesn’t understand human language and gives me endless love, cuddles and poopy breath; my courageous partner Nate who has chosen to be my partner even though I can get incredibly excited about bugs and I continuously ask questions… haahaa; and amazingly supportive, wonderfully encouraging non-judgemental friends who love me anyway because they are thankfully just as weird as I am……. aaaand the family of possums living in the trees above our house.

Thank you all for loving me, no matter how quirky or persistently annoying I can be when I’m asking “but does it look any good?” for the 8th time, you have helped me to create this dream in so many ways every day; helping me glimpse my potential, being the anxiety soothers, the advice givers, and helping to prop me up against the world when I myself can not.

I do not have words for how thankful I am that you are loving and believing in me as much as I do you.

I am so so very grateful and I would not be making this giant leap without your love and your endless inspiration.

You are all incredibly wonderous, loving beings.

AND to everyone else that has stuck through my acceptance speech (teehee) that I will meet here in Little Moonseed land……. THANK YOU.

For sprinkling your little flecks of joyous sparkle to my world and I so hope by reading these tiny weird brainseeds, that you may feel a little more loved, have a little giggle, and hopefully, encourage you to fulfil your dreams too. I am here to cheer you on!

And in response to my previous question, “If I do this, then what?”

Well…. I guess we’re all about to find out :)

And so with that……

I say a big YAAAYYYYYY!!

Love always, Caz x